So downcast oh my soul

Today feel so downcast. This afternoon, i dream something that is im so happy together play with my beloved. I know i shouldn't dream something like that but it is good and happy moment. Maybe i dream a lot maybe one day fall into it. Last time my tuition teacher got mention that "We can dream marvelous things but don't let the dream master you". The moment i realize it, i feel so downcast because it wouldnt happen now and maybe wont happen forever. I understand that she will be in relationship someday and when i think about it, it really make me more downcast that im may or maybe not that person. If i had a chance, i wont let it go no matter what may happen. Unfortunately, i still have no chance or ability to do it.

Im a person who is sam fan jong yit dou(cantonese) means likely to change decision frequently. I wish that if i have a chance, i wont change my decision to love her and have a right heart to love her. I dont like to test a relationship. Relationship is a forever things. If a person unsure about who will be his life partner and try to find few people and start relationship to test which one is better, i would say to that person that u better not to do anything if you dont have a heart to only and the only one person. The action try relationship is like bao yi lai. Although that person invite them to go out to find out more about them, it show that that person really dont have the heart love to anyone. If my analysis is right, only if a girl really tell him that she got interest on him then only he will accept and start relationship.

I dont know whether there is love at first sight or not but i do believe in that. Haiz, it also useless because i just blog here and dont voice it out loud. Well, after all different people got different thinking. All i can do is hope that nothing harm will happen to my friend.

Christmas!!!

Another year of Christmas. I celebrate Christmas in Petra already 3 years. It is a celebration of our LORD Jesus Christ come to earth and born as human being to save us. Well every year, i wish to forget something or give up something and i did it again. I cant totally forget or give up. I really don't know how to behave like a wise man. I cant say my eyes temptation or what, everytime i saw her, i have new feeling or feel relieve. And now i understand that i'm a person who like to observe things but this is something weird to me, i keep on observe her and i feel relieve when i saw her and i know she is there. I really hope that everyday i can see her. Maybe this is what a part of song mention "I cant keep my eyes off you" i guess the lyrics correct or the other way round. I still like her always just like 3 years ago until now.

I know that i cant keep on like someone that i know she didn't like me. Maybe im really "fan jin" (cantonese). Love is blind, maybe i really blinded. LORD i really want you to teach me how to behave like a wise man. Now i just only observe her appearance then i feel satisfy already. I wish that one day, i will feel bored about it and will definately forget about her. If i still cant do it, i really dont know what i can do. Maybe I will try the hard way is confess to her and being totally reject to crush my heart into dust so it wont recover. I know that everytime she reject me, she also feel hurt but i hope that this final move i wont take or really didn't cause her feel hurt.

Now what i can do it just observe and think i cant have the hope of being together with her although how my heart feel deeply except she really told me before hand. I guess no girl will take action first. I wish her will have a wonderful and memorable christmas. I also wish all newcomer will discover the way, the truth and the life in Petra. I pray that all the committee and leader will not give up in learning the good way to serve one another, support one another to explore our talent in whatever things we do. In real time, i cant say to her once again. I just want to say that I really like her.

I Give Up.

I want to tell that i want to give up in loving someone. Those who know me will know who i like the most. I really hope that i can be with her forever but this hope cannot be realize. I struggle a lot because of the hope for a life partner, but it seems that it just a dream. Although it is sad to give up but what i can hope about it? Not to say that im a talent person or a good guy, she have no feeling toward me and i cant create it.

What i can observe already told me that i "MUST" give up. No turning back. If there got miracle, i will be happy but miracle seldom happen to a person like me. My life dont have much miracle happened. Just two miracle happened that i know, one is have good memory power and another is desire and strenght to make higher achievement. Both of it already no more. Just happened at the crusial moment and dissappear.

I know that God have a plan for God's children but i still dont know what God's plan for me. I also hope that my never give up desire will be remain on me. With that, i can work harder and harder to make my life become fruitful.

This year, 1st time become a committee. I dont have any idea what i should do. Committee about commitment to something and do it. I dont have commitment over something. Because of my family barrier, my ownself barrier and i havent earn my own money yet so many things i think i should do support but i cant. Just like as simple as baptize. I got mention to my parent, the result is "You are not mature enough, after you 35 years old then i will agree to let you get baptize". For my ownself barrier, my emotion, my bad habits (that i didn't read books and kids behaviour) and all my practice as a servant in my family also not all really can use it.

For example, eat time. Just to tell a little history of mine. My eating schedule is breakfast 6-8am, lunch 11-12pm and dinner is 5 - 7pm. 7pm and more consider late eat already. When i become regular at church. My lunch and dinner time got different already especially dinner time. After saturday, after clean up everything or have done some activities, normally fellowship dinner would around 8-9pm or 7pm. It is consider my siu yeh. Sunday after bible class, 1.30pm end and delay wait to gather people go lunch together about 2-3pm. So our lunch maybe around 3-4pm. Sometimes i question myself, what it mean that Christian should transform? Is this the transform? Maybe i get the idea wrong of Christian being transform.

Maybe this Christmas i will have a foolish wish. I wish that everyone is united, for those single will found their life partner, those student will have the desire to learn more in studies, those who work will enjoy their work and be able to serve the LORD, the Church will continue to ROCK (Reaching Others for Christ Kingdom) (the word ROCK also equavalent to PETRA) and last is i will regain my confident, my never give up desire and to be a better person.

Cant control anymore!!!

Im not an emotional person but when i read my frens blog. I really cant stand on it. How can a person promise something and fail to do it still can continue to repeat the same mistake over and over again and keep on being forgiven again and again. Although the bible teach us to forgive one another, in this condition who is the one who suffer a lot? The forgiver will feel the most suffer and forgiver will be dissappointed. Although im not in relationship, as for me, i really sympathy that that guy got illness and maybe need to going operation once more. What is important is not that make his behave sad but to have a good memory together with one another walk through the life until the end. If the guy planning dont want to make his behalf sad and want to break up so whatever happened to him, the impact not so great that effect the girl. I want to warn the guy that she will be more sad than still is ur girlfriend. Looking at the love one leave without able to do anything to support or help to gone through meaningful life together. You might think i watch too much movie and movie stuff cant apply to real life. Yes, those purposely make it funny movie i think it is meaningless but some movie really teach us how to reach when something happen. It is not just a make up story, the effect i think u can judge it urself.

It is not easy to start a relationship. I dont have the chance yet but im still able to give more or less advise if needed. I really hope that my frens wont feel sad anymore and will have a wonderful time together with her love 1. If it still feeling sad, maybe one day i might lose control to help even though it is non of my business. Why i do so? because i dont wish to saw my frens sad.

Words from inside

There is something i wish to know. I feel confuse lately. Something that i dont wish anymore seem like there is a hope of it. I want to know whether that hope is real or not. In the past, i wish to know more but since i cant therefore i give up. After i give up, it seem like another way round that i discover little by little. I still feel confuse about it. I do really wish to give up but why there seem hope about it. Why this things continue to happen? Why not just gone forever when it happened once. I really wish to find the answer but i dont dare to ask. I dont wish that something bad will happened and it keep happening again and again. I dont want to keep finding the way out from a deep maze. I wish i can know the way out. Whether the outcome that i will see something good or bad. Neither one happen i cant control it but at least i know and i hope the result will last forever so i wouldn't keep feeling confuse over it. It is easy for me to be trap in a maze than to get away from the maze. I really want to know the answer rather than let it be.

No longer....

I no longer have the united feelings. The feeling that will be my source of energy to keep moving forward. It happen when my body, heart, mind and spirit being united to do something. It could be childish thinking or being a naive person but i no longer can have it. My body over tired my mind, my mind over tired of my heart, my heart lazy to move my body. All like not functioning as one complete body. How could i correct myself to be more united? Work so hard this year and at the end it cause me exhaust. What do i really learned from this whole year? This year almost end and the feeling is like beginning of the year is just happened yesterday. I thought that time move very slow but now i realize that i cant catch up time anymore. Time going to be less and less, i still waste my time over and over again doing nothing that benefits others or benefits myself. Is this call beyond limit or i reach my limit? I feel like i cant hold on any longer. Feel like being isolated or move to another path. I no longer can support myself to reach the goal that i set. I really fall on the ground and cant stand up. I feel regret that i didnt walk the right path at the beginning to reach my destination of life.

Very Tired!!!

Yesterday was my sister wedding dinner at night. During morning time, i consider free because nothing to take care but afternoon need to fetch my mum, my mother sis (I call her Ah Yee) and her daughter (my cousin lo) to take flower and meet my mum small bro (Kau Fu with wife and son) meet at restorant 2020 to take lunch because my Kau Fu just arrived KL from Johor. After that i went home with my mum and Ah Yee follow my Kau Fu car went home.

About 6.00pm we started drive to the restaurant at Pudu call Hei Loi Tang. Before we leave, rain started and feel inconvenient to move to the car because i still need to carry 3 carton. Ahhh why it rain on that time.

At the restaurant, i with my cousin lead those guest to their respective table. I always forget the table numbers and keep asking my cousin. I feel very useless because cant memorize the table no position. After that before the bride and groom come in, i take the chance to take picture with all the guest but some i miss out because they are not together that time and some dont want to take pciture. After wedding dinner, it is about 11.15pm, we drive home. Before i sleep, i finish my movie quantum of solace 007 that i havent finish and after finish is about 12.35am then i go and sleep.

This morning i skip church morning worship, sermon and dicipleship class because i went to my Ah Yee house and carry all the red wine back. Then we go lunch and after lunch went back to the restaurant to take back something left behind and forget to take yesterday. After done everything, we came home and i sleep a whole afternoon until 5. Now i still feel very tired and i havent do my project stuff. Really want to rest but i hope i can finish everything as soon as possible before i sleep. I never thought that i can be this tired.

Reflection

Yesterday i got join cell group but i reach there late because i got something to do. They already started and i just miss one point they talks about Proverbs chapter 2 verse 1 but the second part is about vere 2-4. The second part i feel like God is telling me something important. When i look back my life. Since i enter University. First year first semester, i got some confidence in few subjects becuase i already learned during Form 6. The next semester, something happen and cause me no more confidence in doing anything. From that moment, i begin to study something without learn it. All the while i just study for the purpose to archieve high grade but it doesn't picture myself as a knowledgable person. Sometimes im wondering, a poor in education person like me will deserve to get those grade without learning anything. Proverbs chapter 2 verse 2-4 make me know that if we want to seek something, we have to be like finding hidden treasure. What i mean is, if you want to find hidden treasure, first of all need the hidden treasure map. Study it, analyze it in detail so we will find the best way that lead me to find the treasure. At the same time, we also might think of those trap set to prevent people obtains those treasure. All the while, i just read and memorize notes without really study in deep and question about what,why,when,how on the things i learn. I really waste a lot of time without learning anything. If i realize all this earlier, i wish to change before it really happen. What is pass already pass. I hope that I wouldn't repeat the wrong step that i take. Another things that i wish to change is my heart. I feel heartache when i do something or saw something that i dont wish to do or see. And my emotion change all the time. Why i become so dynamic? Im train to be stable person. I think i didn't learned enough to do in my life. Many things i wish to do such as complete my degree, start my career, get my life partner and give a good life to my parent before they leave this world. I know that im not good at all, i wish I can find new motivation to move my heart to break through all my difficulty. Many know that Im a happy person but im also a cry baby when i alone because i face many difficulty alone and think about my future alone without sharing with others. I know that God is always with us but I fail to keep close with God. My heart always gone astray and my emotion always change. I hope that my emotion, heart and soul will move same direction and push me towards the Goal that God already set for me. Im sorry that im not good at all.

Reach the limit!

Yesterday i just realize that my eye cannot stand looking at bright screen. While i was waiting my sister at Steven Corner to meet up her secondary friends. I when to a cyber cafe nearby and watch people playing games. Then i saw one guy play xtreme super dancer online (XDO) and he play very well. While waiting my sis, so i also play about 30 minutes for that game. I realize that i cant see those note coming and my eye keep blinking. I think my eye reach limit already since everyday i just keep looking at the laptop screen nonstop. It make me difficult to play although i play those song i like and consider easy but i fail to hit the note without miss or bad. I think i cant play this game anymore (onee of my favorite dancing game with song). If i continue like this, i fear that one day i will get blind. I think tomorrow i will start to work at school for my project. I will get to face my laptop screen more and more. Im not sure how long I can stand and i hope that it would hurt so much. Maybe i should rest more everyday after i come back from school without open my laptop but i think, i still open it either watch movie or do other stuff. I know that my eye condition very bad and cant fully heal. All i can do know is try to reduce the damage of my eye. Moreover, it also affect my health. Keep playing with my laptop everyday without exercise. I turn to be more lazy and tired. Hope all this will change so i can have a balance life. That's all what i want to express. I will try to express myself more to improve myself. If possible, learn to be better in using english words without any grammar error. It is late now and tomorrow i need to back to school to be scold by lecturer becuase fail to do the task that had been given. Hiaz......

Kena tagged again by Esther Liew (Small)

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

I’ve tagged:
No mood to tag people. Hehe

01. What have you been doing recently?
Watch downloaded movie, do my project stuff (do little only).
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Ya, when i get new phone sure off before sleep to keep my battery life span long but now no
more.
03.What happened at 10.00am today?
Download new movie.
04. When did you last cry?
Not long ago. Forget what date.
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
Ya before I accepted Christ but now no more.
06. What do you want in your life right now?
I want to complete my study.
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
If got umbrella sure use.
08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Big pillow (double size of normal pillow) but now no more.
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Sport Pants
10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
Too much, i dont remember.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
No, i tend to make a simple, wonderful, happy relationship with less arguement.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
Journey to the center of the earth.
14. What are you proud of?
My Father.
15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
-.-" oldest message where can remember. Lazy to search lo.
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Run to the altar.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
Sing Yeh (Kids time), Henri (Now).
18. What does your last received text message say?
Bye Bye.
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
12.15 a.m.
20. Are you currently happy?
No.
21. Who gives you best advice?
My mother, Sunday Decipleship Teacher (Vincent).
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
No.
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
No.
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
My project.
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
A mail by Hannah Hing about blood type character.
26. Do you wear toe socks?
No.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Esther Liew (Small).
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yes, but don't know when will recover.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
Smoking.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes, but now no more.
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Haha, drink Coca-Cola, Pepsi or coffee is it considered?
32. What is the colour of your room?
Orange.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
No.
34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap?
Not really. Sometimes invite people talk need a lot of $$$.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Nobody except me.
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
My friend (Forget who. wahaha).
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
No.
38. Do you have a life?
I think I don't have life.
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't die?
No.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
My profile don't have song.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Kimberly.
42. Last time you smiled?
Yesterday.
43. Have you changed this year?
Yes.
44. What are you listening right now?
My collection song. Now is English song "Touch My Body - Mariah Carey".
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
No.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open. I didn't play blind fold game lo.
47. Is there a quote you live by?
No.
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
Ya.
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Play piano, organ, frute, triangle, clip-clip but only few times.
50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
Relationship
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
Download movie, chatting, listen to song.
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Still single and available (SA). Don't know happy or not my love life.
53. What song best describe your love life?
Miss You, Waiting for you.
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
Ya. I think.
55. Who always make you laugh?
Friends.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Malay, English, Mandarin, Cantonese, Japanese.
57. Favourite website(s)?
gendou.com, georockman.net.
58. What’s your middle name?
Wai.
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Don't know tomorrow plan. Maybe go Gym.
60. What do you think you are like?
A bird in a cage.
61. Who will you choose to die with?
Can i choose not to die? Die is not a happy things so i wouldn't choose to die with anyone.
62. Where have you been today?
My house, Pos Office, Car dealer shop.
63. What game do you play often?
Big 2.5, Dark Warrior
64. Who are you missing right now?
Someone who i like.
65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
Force to choose then love lo.
66. What are you doing right now?
Isit duplicate question, answering the rest of the questions.
67. Which primary school are you from?
1-2 SK Taman Segar, 3 SK Taman Muda, 4 SM Pandan Indah, 5-6 SK Pandan Indah.
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
White, Pink and Blue.
69. What emotion you like to show?
Happy.
70. What is your life to you?
Zero.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Find solution or do nothing.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Ritchie and Sin Huey.
73. Who do you admire most?
My Father.
74. Which month are you born in?
December.
75. How are you feeling right now?
Sad, lost and lonely.
76. What is the time now?
4.48 pm.
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
Esther Liew (Small) a friend i know this year at Sunday Decipleship Class. She is a
hardworking girl.
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
Green.
79. Why are you doing this test?
Just killing time waiting to finish download movie.
80. What do you do when you’re moody?
Play games, listen music.
81. At which age you wish to get married?
21 (Kids time), 25 or 27 (Current. If I got girlfriend).
82. Who is more important to you?
God, family and friends.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
Walk around the place i went before, meet back all my friend as much as possible, meet my
family member, and tell my feeling to the person i like.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
God, family and friends.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yes, saw many times although not frequent.
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Have my own private school with all the sport facilities and good education system.
87. What is your goal for this year?
Beyond limit i think.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes.
89. What feeling do you love most?
Be with someone i know and be with the one i love.
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Sure, weather turning hot compare to child age.
91.What feeling do you hate the most?
Being cheated like a fool.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes.
93. Do you believe in God?
Yes.
94. Who cares for you most?
My mom.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God, family, friends and life.
96. What will you bring when you fight?
Bazooka (Hehe).
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
Didn't study well during childhood time.
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
Learn to take care of myself with God help.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
Might forgive him depend on what is the situation.
100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
Yes! Continue to wait movie to be downloaded.

Long way to go

After delay for so many days, today I finally start moving my hand to do the task that had been assigning to me. At first, I really struggle about where and how to start because I’m not familiar with the language that I use in doing this task. One more thing is that all the file where I should put it. The development environment very different if I use the language that I familiar with. I try to search the solution to it and I found many answers. Not all answer work perfectly, some comment that have error and some comment it works! I don’t wish to damage my computer if I done a mistake in configure the setting because I’m not good at it. I don’t have confidence to make sure everything work well. I have a friend who tell me before, “To make different between you and others, you must do something that other can’t do”. I really appreciate the advice and I wish I can be the one but I don’t dare to try. Until this moment, I have complete the login interface but the checking haven’t done because lack of database connection. I still finding the way to make it connect and be usable anytime. Haiz, I need more wisdom and support.

10 promises to my dog

I just finish watch the movie 10 promises to my dog. It is a shochiku production. The story mainly about a dog (Golden Retriever) name Socks because his right hand is white color like wearing socks being adopt and accompany his master a girl name Akari. When Akari is about 14 years old, her father is a doctor and very busy on his work while her mother got illness and not survive any longer. One day, Akari discover a puppy (Young Socks) went into her the house garden (small size) and she adopt it. Later she bring the dog to see her mother in the hospital. Her mother told her the 10 promises should make to Socks (Those 10 promises i already posted previously) and Akari agree it.

Day by day, Akari very happy play with Socks until one day, she have to leave Socks to her friend house because her father being transfer to another hospital and the apartment they stay cannot adopt any dogs. Later her friend with his family went to another country and leave Socks alone at house. Socks able to run away and try to find Akari but fail and went into a train. The train driver later contact Akari father and they quickly went to train station to take Socks into their apartment silently. Then her father quit his job and open a clinic and move back to the old house. Later Akari become 23, she always enjoy with her friends and sometimes leave Socks alone in the house and let her father take care of it.

After she graduated, at the age 24, she found a job work as a zoo keeper. She leave the house and stay in the hostel nearby because the place she work is far away from her house. Socks started to feel tired and unable to move. Then Akari know it, her boss ask her to go back and she went home quickly. When she reach home and saw Socks lay on the floor, her father give her a sketch book that left by her mother and she open it and saw picture draw by her mother about 10 promises. She see it one by one.

10 Promises

1. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
2. Place your trust in me. It's crucial to my well-being.
3. Be aware that however you treat me I'll never forget.
4. Before you scold me for being lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me.
5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when it's speaking to me.
6. Remember before you hit me, I have teeth that could hurt you, but that I choose not to bite you.
7. Take care of me when I get old.
8. You have your work, your entertainment, and your friends. I have only you.
9. My life is likely to last 10 years. Any seperation from you will be painful for me.
10. Go with me on difficult journeys. Everything is easier for me if you are there. Remember I love you ...

She feel sad when she see promise number 7 onwards and feel sorry to Socks because she cant fulfill it. After that, Socks past away. At the end of the story she get married with her small kid friend and END. This move really touching and a meaningful movie. Hope that to those who owned any pets know how to be responsible to their pets.

The theme song for that movie also very meaningful. It is a japanese song sing by BoA. I posted the english translation so whoever read this able to understand the meaning.

BoA - Be With You

walking next to you on this road with the sakura leaves dancing
the wind is chilly but for some reason i’m happy
one day changes into the next as we take one step after another
the time that we spend together is like second nature to me

do you remember that promise we made one day?
it’s okay that i believe that one day it’ll be fulfilled, isn’t it?
it’s the reason i’m staying here with you

coming to a standing halt, you absorb the blue sky
with a calm expression and the wind enveloping you.
a single second is really longer than it seems,
i’m sure i feel that way because you’re by my side.

do you remember that promise we made one day?
even if that promise hasn’t been fulfilled, it’s still precious so
that’s why i’m with you

it’s common belief that this era yields no hope
i’m anxious about what’s coming but because you’re here with me… (i can face it)

do you remember that promise we made one day?
one day when it’s fulfilled we’ll have forged a deeper bond and so
that is why the both of us are here

Tagged (-_-")

tagged by hannah ...

starting rime [ 7.36PM ]
name [ henri]
sisters [ jenny]
brothers [ no brother ]
shoe size [ 8 ]
where do you live [ KL ]
favourite drink [ jasmine tea ]
favourite breakfast [ western food ]
have you been on a plane [ yes ]
swam in the ocean [ no ]
broken someone's heart [ errm i dono, maybe yes gua ]
fallen asleep in school [ no ]
fell of your chair [ no]
sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call [ no one calls me]
saved e-mails [ i didn't save but keep in my contact list ]
what is your room like [ little messy ]
what is the last thing you ate [ homemade dishes ]

ever had

chicken pox [ no ]
stitches [ no ]
broken nose [ no ]
do you believe in love at first sight [ yes ]
like picnics [ one a while ]
who was the last person you danced with [ thai woman while i having dinner with my thailand boss on small ship during internship]
last person who made you smile [ can i keep it as my secret. Hehe ]

today did you

talked to someone you like [ no ]
kissed anyone [ nope ]
get sick [ still can hold it ]
talked to an ex [ no, no chance to have gf ]
missing someone [ yes ]
best feeling in the world [ freedom ]
do you sleep with stuffed animals [ no,I don't have any animal at home]
what's under your bed [ floor]
what time is now [ 7.44pm]

random

is there a person on your mind right now [ ya ]
do you want children [ yup ]
do you smile often [ during happy moment or saw something funny ]
what colour shirt are you wearing [ blue ]
when did you cry last [ almost cry consider? After i know my exam result ]
are you a friendly person [ yup ]
where is the person you have feelings for right now [ haiz, around my area lo ]
do you eat healthy [ not really ]
do you still have pictures with you and your ex [ no ex]
have you ever cried because of something someone said to you [ yes ]
if you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to [ walk around ]
are you loud or quiet most of the time [ quiet ]
are you confident [ no more ]

5 thing i was doing ten years ago

[ enjoy playing can soccer with friends ]
[ meet back some of my primary school friends]
[ stay at home, always ]
[ go to my friend birthday party ]
[ play and study at school ]

5 snacks i enjoy

pringles
ferrero rocher
dry laichee
sandwich
yao yu si

5 things i would do if i were a billionaire

buy a mercedes benz for my mother
buy a banglo and live there
build a private school like japan school with the most facilities
give 20% back to God
invest in R&D for more advancce technology in solar system

5 of my bad habits

not often gel my hair
didn't wear nice when go out
didn't read books
late sleep
forgetful

5 places i've lived in

taman muda
taman connaught
taman muda
pandan indah
seri kembangan (in future)

5 people that you tag

esther
hannah
darren
kenneth
wai loon

Result OUT!!!!!

Today my friend told me that result already out. First impression is scare because this time exam I feel I didn't do well. I feel scare to open UTAR portal and I don't know what is my result would be, either pass or fail, and every click i make, i feel more scare about it. After login and click on the result page, i slowly scroll down to the bottom page because the result will show on the bottom. I scroll one by one and i saw first 2 result i get pass, then i scroll all down and i saw all pass. I feel releave after that because i thought one or two subject that I dont have confident on it get pass. Although the grade i haven't know but i'm satisfy that i pass all subject. The rest will know later. Now onwards, i can do whatever i want without getting scold by my parent. I don't want they scold me because i do this and that which affect me get fail result. Tomorrow is Hari Raya and i wish everyone will enjoy their holiday and I will go to my mother hometown at Perak with my sister and her husband. Selamat Hari Raya and Aidilfitri to everyone.

Exam is OVER!!!!

After 2 weeks exam and now finally exam end. This time feel very happy and satisfy although I think i may fail few subjects and take suppliment paper or I will get bad result but my heart already feel nothing. Next week will be Movie Fever week for me because i'm going to finish all the movie i havent watch. Wahaha.

10 promises from the movie "10 Promises to My Dog"

1. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
2. Place your trust in me. It's crucial to my well-being.
3. Be aware that however you treat me I'll never forget.
4. Before you scold me for being lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me.
5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when it's speaking to me.
6. Remember before you hit me, I have teeth that could hurt you, but that I choose not to bite you.
7. Take care of me when I get old.
8. You have your work, your entertainment, and your friends. I have only you.
9. My life is likely to last 10 to 15 years. Any seperation from you will be painful for me.
10. Go with me on difficult journeys. Everything is easier for me if you are there. Remember I love you ...

Nice song by Don Moen

Psalm 23

Jesus, my shepherd and only provider
He makes me lie down in green pastures
He leads me beside the still water
He restores my soul

Surely goodness and mercy will follow me
All the days of my life
And I will dwell in this house forever
Until the end of time

Jesus, my shepherd and only provider
You make me lie down in green pastures
You lead me beside the still water
You restore my soul

Though I walk through the valley of shadows
I will not be afraid
Your rod and staff are my only comfort
And You'll be with me always

You prepared a table before me In the presences of my enemies
And you anoint my head with oil And my cup overflows
My cup overflows with your love With your love

Jesus, my shepherd and only provider
You make me lie down in green pastures
You lead me beside the still water
You restore my soul

Exam coming soon!!

This is my first time write blog in blogspot. Well my exam is coming soon and hope can finish do revision in 2 days time. Hope my CGPA wouldn't drop so i can do my best to archieve my target point. Not only myself taking this exam, my others friends who having their school exam like PMR, SPM, STPM and other college as well. Hope everyone can archieve what they want to archieve and good luck to all of them. GAMBATEH!!! UahHaZipZapFuyoh.