RM50

This is a story told by a cancer patient.

There is a rich man who organize an auction in a big hall. He invited everyone to go to this auction meeting. The meeting started once everyone invited is arrived. He begin by asking this question. "Today i will give out one RM50, who want this RM50 please raise up your hands!". All the guest after heard this everyone raise up their hand. Then the rich man take the RM50 and scrunch it into small round shape. He asked again. "I give out these RM50, who still want it?". 50% of the guest raise up their hand. Then the rich man throw the small round shape RM50 on the floor and step on it. The RM50 become more dirty. He ask one more time. "Now these RM50 is not in good form and dirty, anyone here still want it?". Only few people raise up their hand.

That is the end of the story.

What is the lesson of that story?
- Imagine ourself is the RM50. When we are perfect condition, everyone want to take it.
- When our condition become less perfect, half of the people want to take it.
- When our condition is totally bad, still got small amount of people want to take it.

The main lesson is we should live to the best of our life.
Do not under estimate a person who are suffering, that person still have his value and is the same value that can benefit others.

Like a cancer patient, they seems to be like the RM50 condition after being scrunch and become dirty, not much people will want to take it but his value is still RM50. Why not just take it and make use of it fully? For all these person gone through suffering, they know how to live their live fully by live their best for every single moment like everyday is their last day and they surely appreciate every moment and still able to give encouragement to people. We seems like far more perfect than cancer patient but why we cant live our best in our life?

All these answer should leave to yourselve to think and decide.

Completely fail...

Long time ago, i was a failure. In my childhood time, i fail so many times such as learn tek kwon do, learn crayon art, learn to calculate mathematics using the chinese calculator (suan pan), tuition and many more.

When i reach form 4, i do realize what is most important and able to encourage me to move forward and I did success. What i do and it will success such as persevere and commitment to attend tuition class without fail. Never give up and learn from mistake was my moto to encourage me to move on.

All the while i keep success and getting higher and higher success but all this doesn't mean anything to me now. Now i'm back to a failure situation. I fail to do what i want and wish to do, i fail to persevere, i fail to control myself and i fail to love.

All the while, i tought of learn to be advisor to encourage people but now i fail to do so. My heart, mind and soul doesn't seems to be united as i did last time during form 4. Now seems like fighting against one another. My heart feel so pain when I desire to love. I dont understand why people can't give up when they really love a person and now i did. I just feel the same way as they did. I do love but i dont know why i cant just give up and find another right person since i already rejected so many times. Why do other people so easily to get into relationship? How they do it and how they really found the right person? I dont have the answer.

Im turning back to my failure moment and i just feel like dont want to do anything and just stop the clock and be empty. I hardly move forward these day. Why i get involve in these at the beginning? Im not worthy at all. I completely fail.....

Henri = Zero