Feel very lazy already. Don't know is because getting older and older problem or really i turn to be LAZY. Do i look like really have nothing or dont have good or bad feeling? I still have personal problem actually but i still can control with my simple acting. Wahaha.
This have change a lot but I'm not growing to adapt the situation. This is abnormal to me and also first time cannot adapt things in a short period of time. Do i reach my limit or i just a slow learner?
My heart, my mind and my body really fight with one another. Cannot cooperate together as one like usual. What is my solution to all the things im facing? I guess my spirit is gone or exhaust. What can i do to replenish my spirit? How to get motivate back like in old time? Even i have a feeling of giving up myself. Whatever i've learn, i cant recall. Whatever i've done, is my own strength and doesn't benefit anything.
I'm so doubt about myself. Who am I? I feel that i lost my feeling as well. All the event people are exciting, i just feel like nothing. What can i do to understand every little things? What can i do which really show who i am? I'm just like a wind, when wind blow high, nothing can stop the wind, when no wind blow, it is so calm. I never be firm or harmony wind which blow smoothy that people enjoy the wind.
Am I a weird person? Yes. A person who doesn't know everything at all. A stubborn person and nothing can be done well. One question keep in my mind, i saw many people give up when they walk through study, now isit i will be the same like them giving up something precious? Although i feel nothing about it, i guess people also feel the same thing when the time im giving up.
Wish that everyone will continue to press on towards their goal and achieve the hope they hope for so long.
