Today as usual babysitting at home and cant go out to church. My mother sick already plus got 3 kids in the house so i just help to watch over them and accompany my sis son to sleep because he also sick too. Then while he already sleep, i try to use my PSP to check mail because carry my laptop seems not so convenient and the kid might not go to sleep and keep watching what im doing with my laptop. So i bring my PSP small and can hide while check email and browse internet.
Honestly speaking, browse webpage using PSP is not that good because it open very slow. Check email still ok but browse other will take some times (roughly 1-2 minutes maybe my Internet line slow gua). Then after i check mail, i try to watch youtube clips but sadly speaking unable to load the video (T_T). Nowadays all the webpage design with integrated so many plugins, codes, flashs, advertisement and etc which cause the loading very slow and consume a lot of bandwidth because of big file size webpage. So if we not using highspeed enough really need to wait very long in order to completely display the webpage.
Now I'm still considering few things to upgrade my stuff.
1) Change Handphone (due to my phone battery overcharge, keypad need to press hard, keypad light die off but still function well)
2) New laptop (due to my desktop consume some spaces, if possible buy one powerful laptop for myself to do video, graphic or do programming and my current laptop will be use by my parent to save space (^_^)V )
3) Subscribe unify (Need to move to new house only start to subscribe. Dont know available or not)
If possible i want to sell off my Gundam Model Collection because i really no interest in collection model anymore. Yesterday night went to time square for movie with one brother in christ. When i reach there i straight away go to Gundam shop and see any new gundam. Yes, it have, Strike Freedom Perfect Grade (RM 799.00 (^o^) WoW ) and many new Sangokuden gundam. But i feel no interest to buy even i afford it and in the end i just bought the new Gundam OO the movie RM9.90 (^_^). This is the first time Gundam VS Alien in the whole history of Gundam (What is that?????). Well the movie still bring some meaning.
Tomorrow is another day of babysitting. Haihz.....
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Friday, December 10, 2010
Year End!!
Time pass so fast. Since last year carolling until now already past one more year. This year is a meaningful year for me because there are different things happen in me and others. Many good and bad things we all went through this year and hopefully all the lesson we learn or experience will not forget and not repeat the same mistake again.
As for me, many trials to face such as family, work, friends and even myself. There are many responsibilities and decision have to make in order to survive or to continue to serve one another. I have fail many times to complete all this but really want to give thanks to God for HIS grace is sufficient for me and as my shepherd who teach me and guide me through the things i face. Without such support, I dont know what will happen now or where i will be.
I always believe that if God allow things to happen then it will happen as God will whether good or bad, there will be lesson to learn so that we can grow in maturity and spiritual growth. Christmas almost come and I have no time to prepare since now got 4 kids in the house. So as usual will help out to take care of them. Everyone also need to add oil in everything they do.
My Favourite: Psalm 23.
As for me, many trials to face such as family, work, friends and even myself. There are many responsibilities and decision have to make in order to survive or to continue to serve one another. I have fail many times to complete all this but really want to give thanks to God for HIS grace is sufficient for me and as my shepherd who teach me and guide me through the things i face. Without such support, I dont know what will happen now or where i will be.
I always believe that if God allow things to happen then it will happen as God will whether good or bad, there will be lesson to learn so that we can grow in maturity and spiritual growth. Christmas almost come and I have no time to prepare since now got 4 kids in the house. So as usual will help out to take care of them. Everyone also need to add oil in everything they do.
My Favourite: Psalm 23.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Relationship....
This is my personal experience and discovery about relationship between a man and a women.
Man wish to have relationship but once they have it they just dont care it/ appreciate it.
Women wish to have relationship and when they fell so much and appreciate it.
Many times we heard a couples will complain about their companion and they plan to change that person to be a perfect or to be suitable to them. But one thing i found that people heart cannot be change just like that. I heard so many times arguement and complain about how bad this person is but his/ her partner still never give up on that relationship even may concern about life and death. Taking an example, we might heart about people violating their partner, punish them or maybe torture them but they still wont give up the relationship that started. This happen especially to women.
I'm not saying there is no good man but women did show their faithfulness to their life partner but man didn't appreciate it at all. Man didn't many wrong things and unforgivable but no matter what women will show forgiveness and hope to change the man behaviour. In fact, man behaviour will never change. Their attitude will never change at all. They may change for temporary but ended up repeating the same mistake again and again.
Now I understand how difficult Moses job to bring God's people to the promise land where he predicted that God's people will surely forget about God.
So far, I haven't see people totallt 180 degree change/ transform themselve to a better person. I believe that God can change people heart but if that person really dont want to change it, it would not change at all. In everything we do, we must take initiative first then surely God will help us to improve ourselves to be a better person.
Man wish to have relationship but once they have it they just dont care it/ appreciate it.
Women wish to have relationship and when they fell so much and appreciate it.
Many times we heard a couples will complain about their companion and they plan to change that person to be a perfect or to be suitable to them. But one thing i found that people heart cannot be change just like that. I heard so many times arguement and complain about how bad this person is but his/ her partner still never give up on that relationship even may concern about life and death. Taking an example, we might heart about people violating their partner, punish them or maybe torture them but they still wont give up the relationship that started. This happen especially to women.
I'm not saying there is no good man but women did show their faithfulness to their life partner but man didn't appreciate it at all. Man didn't many wrong things and unforgivable but no matter what women will show forgiveness and hope to change the man behaviour. In fact, man behaviour will never change. Their attitude will never change at all. They may change for temporary but ended up repeating the same mistake again and again.
Now I understand how difficult Moses job to bring God's people to the promise land where he predicted that God's people will surely forget about God.
So far, I haven't see people totallt 180 degree change/ transform themselve to a better person. I believe that God can change people heart but if that person really dont want to change it, it would not change at all. In everything we do, we must take initiative first then surely God will help us to improve ourselves to be a better person.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
RM50
This is a story told by a cancer patient.
There is a rich man who organize an auction in a big hall. He invited everyone to go to this auction meeting. The meeting started once everyone invited is arrived. He begin by asking this question. "Today i will give out one RM50, who want this RM50 please raise up your hands!". All the guest after heard this everyone raise up their hand. Then the rich man take the RM50 and scrunch it into small round shape. He asked again. "I give out these RM50, who still want it?". 50% of the guest raise up their hand. Then the rich man throw the small round shape RM50 on the floor and step on it. The RM50 become more dirty. He ask one more time. "Now these RM50 is not in good form and dirty, anyone here still want it?". Only few people raise up their hand.
That is the end of the story.
What is the lesson of that story?
- Imagine ourself is the RM50. When we are perfect condition, everyone want to take it.
- When our condition become less perfect, half of the people want to take it.
- When our condition is totally bad, still got small amount of people want to take it.
The main lesson is we should live to the best of our life.
Do not under estimate a person who are suffering, that person still have his value and is the same value that can benefit others.
Like a cancer patient, they seems to be like the RM50 condition after being scrunch and become dirty, not much people will want to take it but his value is still RM50. Why not just take it and make use of it fully? For all these person gone through suffering, they know how to live their live fully by live their best for every single moment like everyday is their last day and they surely appreciate every moment and still able to give encouragement to people. We seems like far more perfect than cancer patient but why we cant live our best in our life?
All these answer should leave to yourselve to think and decide.
There is a rich man who organize an auction in a big hall. He invited everyone to go to this auction meeting. The meeting started once everyone invited is arrived. He begin by asking this question. "Today i will give out one RM50, who want this RM50 please raise up your hands!". All the guest after heard this everyone raise up their hand. Then the rich man take the RM50 and scrunch it into small round shape. He asked again. "I give out these RM50, who still want it?". 50% of the guest raise up their hand. Then the rich man throw the small round shape RM50 on the floor and step on it. The RM50 become more dirty. He ask one more time. "Now these RM50 is not in good form and dirty, anyone here still want it?". Only few people raise up their hand.
That is the end of the story.
What is the lesson of that story?
- Imagine ourself is the RM50. When we are perfect condition, everyone want to take it.
- When our condition become less perfect, half of the people want to take it.
- When our condition is totally bad, still got small amount of people want to take it.
The main lesson is we should live to the best of our life.
Do not under estimate a person who are suffering, that person still have his value and is the same value that can benefit others.
Like a cancer patient, they seems to be like the RM50 condition after being scrunch and become dirty, not much people will want to take it but his value is still RM50. Why not just take it and make use of it fully? For all these person gone through suffering, they know how to live their live fully by live their best for every single moment like everyday is their last day and they surely appreciate every moment and still able to give encouragement to people. We seems like far more perfect than cancer patient but why we cant live our best in our life?
All these answer should leave to yourselve to think and decide.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Completely fail...
Long time ago, i was a failure. In my childhood time, i fail so many times such as learn tek kwon do, learn crayon art, learn to calculate mathematics using the chinese calculator (suan pan), tuition and many more.
When i reach form 4, i do realize what is most important and able to encourage me to move forward and I did success. What i do and it will success such as persevere and commitment to attend tuition class without fail. Never give up and learn from mistake was my moto to encourage me to move on.
All the while i keep success and getting higher and higher success but all this doesn't mean anything to me now. Now i'm back to a failure situation. I fail to do what i want and wish to do, i fail to persevere, i fail to control myself and i fail to love.
All the while, i tought of learn to be advisor to encourage people but now i fail to do so. My heart, mind and soul doesn't seems to be united as i did last time during form 4. Now seems like fighting against one another. My heart feel so pain when I desire to love. I dont understand why people can't give up when they really love a person and now i did. I just feel the same way as they did. I do love but i dont know why i cant just give up and find another right person since i already rejected so many times. Why do other people so easily to get into relationship? How they do it and how they really found the right person? I dont have the answer.
Im turning back to my failure moment and i just feel like dont want to do anything and just stop the clock and be empty. I hardly move forward these day. Why i get involve in these at the beginning? Im not worthy at all. I completely fail.....
Henri = Zero
When i reach form 4, i do realize what is most important and able to encourage me to move forward and I did success. What i do and it will success such as persevere and commitment to attend tuition class without fail. Never give up and learn from mistake was my moto to encourage me to move on.
All the while i keep success and getting higher and higher success but all this doesn't mean anything to me now. Now i'm back to a failure situation. I fail to do what i want and wish to do, i fail to persevere, i fail to control myself and i fail to love.
All the while, i tought of learn to be advisor to encourage people but now i fail to do so. My heart, mind and soul doesn't seems to be united as i did last time during form 4. Now seems like fighting against one another. My heart feel so pain when I desire to love. I dont understand why people can't give up when they really love a person and now i did. I just feel the same way as they did. I do love but i dont know why i cant just give up and find another right person since i already rejected so many times. Why do other people so easily to get into relationship? How they do it and how they really found the right person? I dont have the answer.
Im turning back to my failure moment and i just feel like dont want to do anything and just stop the clock and be empty. I hardly move forward these day. Why i get involve in these at the beginning? Im not worthy at all. I completely fail.....
Henri = Zero
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Lost Memories
Few days back, i was doing my room keeping (quite messy. Haih). So i start from my old recycle paper box and remove some old papers/books so that can fill new useful paper in. I discover so many paper that i use during my Form 6 and University time. Looking back at the work i did written in the paper reminds me back many moment that happen during University life. All the battle that went through with friends such as assignment, presentation, project and exam. Even i discover all my exam slip still there (^_^) Hehe...
So fast already one year pass after graduation and depart from school. Any progress in working life? Still the same and didn't earned much. So many responsibilities that need to take care when become an adult such as family members, work place and church. All this is just my training ground to make me a better person, like what my Sunday School Teacher tell us that this world is just a training ground for us to get us prepare to go to Heaven and now i really understand his mean. There are a lot of things to learn from a person experience and this is the way i learn things.
"Looking at the past memories to encourage us to move forward".
I hope that everyone will see their past memories (whether good or bad or even nothing significant) not to make them sad and emo but to really move forward and not repeat the mistake that done in the past.
"We can't change the past but we can change the future".
This is call HISTORY.
So fast already one year pass after graduation and depart from school. Any progress in working life? Still the same and didn't earned much. So many responsibilities that need to take care when become an adult such as family members, work place and church. All this is just my training ground to make me a better person, like what my Sunday School Teacher tell us that this world is just a training ground for us to get us prepare to go to Heaven and now i really understand his mean. There are a lot of things to learn from a person experience and this is the way i learn things.
"Looking at the past memories to encourage us to move forward".
I hope that everyone will see their past memories (whether good or bad or even nothing significant) not to make them sad and emo but to really move forward and not repeat the mistake that done in the past.
"We can't change the past but we can change the future".
This is call HISTORY.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Song of Praise
Today I didn't go to church because I already make a promised with my cousin to attend his convocation ceremony at UCSI. So at first I was thinking that I'm gonna miss church again and feel a bit guilty and sad. When I was going there about 2pm something, I still feel that I'm guilty and go inside the hall and take a sit inside while waiting the ceremony to start.
One thing that surprise me that is the music they broadcast. I can't never imagine that they broadcast instrumental song that is very familiar, which is from the Song of Praise. At that moment, I feel very happy and amazed that how this can happen, at this kind of ceremony they broadcast this kind of music and I start to sing in my heart (but some i forget the lyrics (TT_TT)). At that very surprise moment, I feel that God still with me even though I'm not going to church to worship and I feel my surrounding is full with song like worshiping God at church.
When I think back, all the time, God is approaching me everywhere I go, when I'm not happy, God will be there and encourage me by anything that surrounding me. The Word of God, the Song of Praise and some inspiration moment surely will approach me. I really enjoy the moment that the music was broadcasting and I enjoy singing in my heart.
I really thankful that whatever I do and wherever I go, I can feel God present is there and will encourage me all the time. What I did is just quiet down myself and listen.
One thing that surprise me that is the music they broadcast. I can't never imagine that they broadcast instrumental song that is very familiar, which is from the Song of Praise. At that moment, I feel very happy and amazed that how this can happen, at this kind of ceremony they broadcast this kind of music and I start to sing in my heart (but some i forget the lyrics (TT_TT)). At that very surprise moment, I feel that God still with me even though I'm not going to church to worship and I feel my surrounding is full with song like worshiping God at church.
When I think back, all the time, God is approaching me everywhere I go, when I'm not happy, God will be there and encourage me by anything that surrounding me. The Word of God, the Song of Praise and some inspiration moment surely will approach me. I really enjoy the moment that the music was broadcasting and I enjoy singing in my heart.
I really thankful that whatever I do and wherever I go, I can feel God present is there and will encourage me all the time. What I did is just quiet down myself and listen.
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